‘Heidi to Heiddegger’ pg. 4

The paucity of reading materials in my life was to end on my sixth birthday, in the form of a gift from an englightened aunt.

This  book, ‘ Now We Are Six’ , by A.A. Milne accompanied my nineteen-year-old aunt to Germany, in her luggage, Precious cargo. I have it still.  Published by Methuen & Co. Ltd; London, 36 Essex Street, W.C.2. First published on October 13th 1927.It had been reprinted thirty-one times . And this was the thirty-second edition, 1950. The inscription inside read:

‘To Dearest Mandy, wishing you a very Happy Birthday, with all my love, Aunt Dorothy’. September, 1951.

It was the loveliest thing I had ever handled. A yellow, cloth-bound, hard-cover book, with the delightful drawings ( called decorations) by E.H.Shepard, inside.  It was/is still exquisite, and  in excellent condition, considering how many times it was read and re-read.  This truly was reading’ manna from Heaven’ to a book-starved child.  As I opened it, I felt an excitement, a rush, a thrilling expectation of the  wonders  that were about to be discovered   on its pages.  To this day, I feel the same  joy with every book I buy/borrow – even hold.  This magical anticipation; deep respect and reverence for books has never left me. I experience a flood of euphoria – could it be a dopamine ‘hit’; a rush of serotonin to the brain, perhaps, in the very presence of books. They delight me. I am greedy for them.  I’m in a state of grace  with every bookshop, or library I enter. I live surrounded by books. All very dear friends of mine. My hunger for books, my appetite  for them has never left me. My Kindle,too, doesn’t disappoint – it is a treasure trove. And ordering and downloading countless books – at my fingertips – is pure, gluttonous pleasure.

Later in my life, aged nineteen, I worked as a museum assistant at the V&A in London, and began my career there in the National Art Library.  What a glorious, hallowed place that was. I became a grateful  minion, an acolyte, along with  all the other assistants, restorers,  book-keepers and the Senior Librarian, dear Mr Harthan, as we  ministered to these sacred artefacts in this Temple of  beloved volumes, pamphlets. brochures and tomes to Art. We were almost envious and a little resentful of the clients who disturbed our magnificent horde throughout the day. We kept our eye on these priceless treasures,knowing how unique and special so many of them were.

Within a week, I had learned every single poem in ‘Now We are Six’ by heart. I gulped each poem down and committed it to memory. The book was an absolute feast; and a revelation. Here, at last  was humour, fun. word-play, puns, adventure, history, on every page.  I had been withering away on my unstimulating diet of fairy-tales, most of whom I found to be slightly creepy – here was wholesome nutrition at last. Day after day, I revelled in these thirty-five verses. I had no favourites. I loved them all . From ‘Binker’ to ‘Waiting at the Window’.

Here, in the nick of time, was my first ‘book-companion’. A friend to turn to, at any time of the day. A ticket to the wonders of the outside world . A book-worm had been born.

3 thoughts on “‘Heidi to Heiddegger’ pg. 4”

  1. I keep coming back to read this piece!

    Books as nourishment. I love it. I experienced a similar thing with music in my childhood. And telly! I feel the same way about YouTube Music as you do about your Kindle. It really is “Pure, gluttonous pleasure!” I am so glad you found friends in books when those grown ups weren’t there for you.

    I was also enchanted to read about your employment at the V&A. I didn’t even know about the V&A until I was 29. Not a museum person really. But the way you describe it as a temple, and your reverence, and the care you took of the artefacts along with all those other people working there; I could sense the same hush I feel when I’m in a cathedral, and long to feel in a library. (I would love to have been a stonemason!) It was the room full of casts of buildings we went to see. They’d given my friend nightmares since he’d seen them as a child. And you’ve taught me the word “acolyte”. Thank you.

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  2. I have had a little wander around your blog, but keep reading this piece. I love that this gift of a book gave you a lifelong source of friendship and nourishment in your lonely, hungry world. I get the same pure, gluttonous pleasure from having so much music and television at my fingertips now. My first escape from an often unhappy home was the gift of a personal stereo when I was 9. Headphones on, I have enjoyed my own private exploration of a musical universe ever since. And television characters were and still are very real to me. I desperately wanted to be one of the Waltons, and to be friends with Mork. I am also enchanted by your description of your first job at the V&A. It reminds me of the feeling I get when I am in a cathedral. And, I have learned the word acolyte. Thank you. I look forward to delving in and reading more of your beautiful writing.

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